Review: If There's No Tomorrow by Jennifer L. Armentrout

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if there's no tomorrow jennifer l armentrout

Title: If There's No Tomorrow 
Author: Jennifer L. Armentrout 
Series: Stand-alone 
Genre: Contemporary, YA 
Publication date: September 5, 2017 
Rating: ★★★½ 

Lena Wise is always looking forward to tomorrow, especially at the start of her senior year. She’s ready to pack in as much friend time as possible, to finish college applications, and to maybe let her childhood best friend Sebastian know how she really feels about him. For Lena, the upcoming year is going to be epic—one of opportunities and chances. Until one choice, one moment, destroys everything. Now Lena isn’t looking forward to tomorrow. Not when friend time may never be the same. Not when college applications feel all but impossible. Not when Sebastian might never forgive her for what happened. For what she let happen. With the guilt growing each day, Lena knows that her only hope is to move on. But how can she move on when she and her friends’ entire existences have been redefined? How can she move on when tomorrow isn’t even guaranteed?

Review: Illuminae by Amie Kaufman & Jay Kristoff

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Title: Illuminae  
Author: Amie Kaufman & Jay Kristoff  
Series: The Illuminae Files #1  
Genre: Science Fiction, YA  
Publication date: October 20, 2015 
Rating: ★★★★★ 

This morning, Kady thought breaking up with Ezra was the hardest thing she’d have to do. This afternoon, her planet was invaded. The year is 2575, and two rival megacorporations are at war over a planet that’s little more than an ice-covered speck at the edge of the universe. Too bad nobody thought to warn the people living on it. With enemy fire raining down on them, Kady and Ezra—who are barely even talking to each other—are forced to fight their way onto an evacuating fleet, with an enemy warship in hot pursuit. But their problems are just getting started. A deadly plague has broken out and is mutating, with terrifying results; the fleet's AI, which should be protecting them, may actually be their enemy; and nobody in charge will say what’s really going on. As Kady hacks into a tangled web of data to find the truth, it's clear only one person can help her bring it all to light: the ex-boyfriend she swore she'd never speak to again.

Review: The Cruel Prince by Holly Black

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Title: The Cruel Prince  
Author: Holly Black  
Series: The Folk Of The Air #1  
Genre: Fantasy, YA  
Publication date: January 2, 2018 
Rating: ★★★★½ 

Jude was seven years old when her parents were murdered and she and her two sisters were stolen away to live in the treacherous High Court of Faerie. Ten years later, Jude wants nothing more than to belong there, despite her mortality. But many of the fey despise humans. Especially Prince Cardan, the youngest and wickedest son of the High King. To win a place at the Court, she must defy him–and face the consequences. In doing so, she becomes embroiled in palace intrigues and deceptions, discovering her own capacity for bloodshed. But as civil war threatens to drown the Courts of Faerie in violence, Jude will need to risk her life in a dangerous alliance to save her sisters, and Faerie itself.

Review: Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi

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Title: Shatter Me  
Author: Tahereh Mafi  
Series: Shatter Me #1  
Genre: Dystopia, Science Fiction, YA  
Publication date: November 15, 2011 
Rating: ★★½ 

Juliette hasn’t touched anyone in exactly 264 days. The last time she did, it was an accident, but The Reestablishment locked her up for murder. No one knows why Juliette’s touch is fatal. As long as she doesn’t hurt anyone else, no one really cares. The world is too busy crumbling to pieces to pay attention to a 17-year-old girl. Diseases are destroying the population, food is hard to find, birds don’t fly anymore, and the clouds are the wrong color. The Reestablishment said their way was the only way to fix things, so they threw Juliette in a cell. Now so many people are dead that the survivors are whispering war – and The Reestablishment has changed its mind. Maybe Juliette is more than a tortured soul stuffed into a poisonous body. Maybe she’s exactly what they need right now. Juliette has to make a choice: Be a weapon. Or be a warrior.

Someone picked up the sun and pinned it to the sky again, but every day it hangs a little lower than the day before. It's like a negligent parent who only knows one half of who you are. It never sees how its absence changes people. How different we are in the dark.

To new beginnings.

Hi everyone,

It's been a while. It's been a long while, actually. 

If you're still reading this after those months of silence, know that I am incredibly grateful. I did not expect you to, but it makes me really happy anyway. These last couple of months have not been easy. I've been under a lot of pressure and if there's one thing I can say about myself, it's that I do not handle stress well. Not real stress anyway. It slowly eats away at me. I hide it and I allow it to shut me down, to lock me in place and to make me ditch responsibilities. I'm fully aware of the problems this causes. I still can't seem to help myself.

Stress is something subjective. Perhaps other people in my position would have been perfectly fine. I, however, decided to drown my own thoughts, hoping they'd go away without me having to acknowledge them. I'm acknowledging them now because things only got worse.

Everything started back in September when my grandmother died. It was not unexpected and I was honestly relieved that she no longer had to suffer, but the inevitability of it all still haunts my mind.  Up until then I'd had the luxury of not having lost many people that were close to me. I'm not hardened yet, although none of this would every be truly bearable.

On top of that there were/are work-related issues. I had a hard time adjusting to my new position. I still haven't completely reconciled myself with it. It's a harsh thing having to switch the job you love (and have been doing for three years) for something not nearly as fulfilling just because you're still young and can't possibly compete in the seniority game. I do not hate what I'm doing now, but I do not love it either. Some days are better than others, but the mornings where I have to force myself out of bed outnumber the others.

And then there is the house-issue. For those of you who don't know: I'm building a house (okay fine a real estate firm is) on my own. Me. Twenty-five-year-old-unexperienced-blue-me is building a house. It's absolutely wonderful. I'm hopefully moving out of my parents' house in a couple of weeks time and it the most thrilling thing in the world. But however great it was to see my near-future place built brick by brick, it has been one of the hardest endeavors yet. When I close my eyes at night all I see are forms I barely understand but need to file and impossible bills. In between the excitement there is also a considerate amount of worry and fear that I've ignored for far too long. I remind myself daily that it will all be worth it in the end. But it's time I finally stop pretending that this hasn't also been incredibly hard on me.

For a while I couldn't bring myself to read anymore. Which added to more stress because I was failing my reading challenge. It seems so insignificant but I haven't read less than fifty books a year for over a decade and it actually made me feel bad. With everything already going on in my head, taking a temporarily break from blogging was necessary. Instead I took some longterm, highly appreciated me-time. Which I almost ruined by doing NaNoWriMo despite my better judgement but luckily that worked out in the end. I really committed myself to bullet journalling for one, and it has proven to be a wonderful instrument for self-care and better organisation. Things are improving. The weight on my shoulders is lifting. Brick by brick.

I'm back now. Or at least I'm actively trying to be. I'm excited and ready for a new beginning. New house, new books, new me. I can do this. So happy New Year everyone! I wish you all the most wonderful year. May it be full of magical new memories and infinite laughter. I'll be seeing you around.



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